It's Time To Stop

If I had know it was so hard to quit smoking, I won't smoke in the first place at all. Man, it was so hard to keep those stupid and irritating thoughts of picking up a cigarette out of my mind. It's like those thoughts will keep popping up once every half a second. I'm serious man, it's that often. Remember back in the days when you had your first crush on someone else and you kept thinking about him/her every seconds of the day?? Well, quitting smoking is like that,.... multiples by three. And I'm not going into the details like lack of concentration, headaches, drownsiness, difficulties in breathing and so on.

But now as time goes by, I manage to 'trick' myself and be nicotine-free for five days. Yes, FIVE FREAKING DAYS~!!! No nicotine patches, no holding of pen, no chewing gums, nothing~!! Just plain old cold turkey style. (You non smokers think it's easy?? Try not brushing your teeth for five days and let's see how you'll handle it.)

For me I can't think of 'Quit Smoking', I must think of 'Not Smoking'. For 'Quit Smoking' is something i haven't try and seems foreign to me, but 'Not Smoking' is basically,..... well....erm.....not smoking at all. I don't know if you guys know the difference, as long as I do it's enough. HA~! But I know, it's a constant battle throughout my whole life and I shouldn't be so cocky about it yet. Well, five days down, 5000 more days to go. And I thanks Grandma for lending me her strength in helping me for not smoking. Though you are not here by my side, you are still the main reason for me quitting. Thank you, Grandma. :)