Some Things Are Just Not Meant To Be

Was waiting for someone at some MRT station this morning, and thought of 'S' who was staying near the station. I was hoping to see her at the entrance as she took the train to work everyday.

Didn't saw her for a long time.
Didn't heard from her for quite a while.

Was thinking of all the things I'd done to make her notice me before.
Was thinking of all the things I'd done to make her mine.

The rain kept pouring as if it was showing it's sympathy.
The short wait for my ride was like an eternity.

I used to be so crazy about her. I tried all ways to get to know her better. I think about her day and night. I even wish she would use me, just for a second, or for any reason so that I can talk to her more. I was even hoping for her to lie to me so that I can be with her, just for a while. I can't understand why she doesn't gave me a chance. Didn't I do enough?? Did I really gave her a wrong impression?? Did I hurt her with my words or actions before??

I really don't know why I felt that way before, I really don't know why. Right now I can feel the heartache inside. I really shouldn't feel this way anymore, for I had gave myself a year, as a chance for me...and for her.

As my ride near the MRT station reached, I hopped on into the car. As the vehicle was going down the street, it was then I saw her...making her way to the station.

If only the car was late for a minute.
If only I had take my time to board it.
If only I had insisted on staying and wait just for a minute. If only...

I guess some things are just not meant to be.

S, I really hope that you can see this right now. I really do. I know the chances are slim, but I really wanted to tell you that although I am not even a part of your life, you are the world to me once. You had not done anything to me at all since I' d met you, but you had change me. And a small part of you still hang on inside me. S, thank you for making me not worse, but a better man than before.

Thank you, S.


** Intended to post this up in my other blog. But my feelings tells me to post it here. Hope it was a right decision.